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THIS N THATAnd suddenly its summer, long may it last.
This week it’s been hot, dry and sunny. Utterly frustrating having to go to work when the weather is so good and there is so much to do. Every day I wake up and think, ‘this time next year I’ll be free from work forever’. These 6 weeks, last two in May and the whole of June are often the best here in Scotland, last year when school finished at the end of June, so did summer. I’m hoping the same doesn’t happen again this year, and then I remind myself, if it does, it will be the last time it effects me because next year……..I’ll not be working at all after March.
Now that I have a venue to show my work I realise how unmotivated and disorganised I’ve been in the past. I have so many bits of drawings and paintings that are unfinished, none of my drawings are mounted, my system is, fill up a sketch book, throw it in a draw and forget it, start a new one. Now I’ve become selective, framing is far too expensive but the local man who has a shop in the high street only charges £6.00 to mount drawings and wrap them in clear plastic. That makes them clean, tidy and presentable enough to show without putting the sale price too high. I’ve left 6 of what I thought were my better drawings with him to mount. I have THREE unfinished paintings on canvas that I’m rushing to complete within the next couple of weeks. When using canvas to paint I paint all the way round the sides in a neutral colour and that way, they don’t need expensive frames.
I was asked to get together some information about myself and present in a way that can be left in the coffee shop for people to look at. I ended up doing a potted history with pictures saying how; while I loved Art all the way through school and Art College, once out of college and into the big world of grown up life; jobs , bills, kids etc, seemed to get in the way of art and I virtually gave it up. That is until about 5 years ago when I found myself living alone, no dependents and the freedom to do exactly what I wanted to do, and promptly took myself back to art classes. While writing all this out, I realised how little I have left of those days at college, I found a picture of me in the studio at college age about 19,
and a couple of pictures, both now lost, that I painted at college.
Its very weird looking at them now, a whole lifetime has passed and it’s as if I’ve gone full circle. Am I alone I wonder, in feeling that I don’t quite fit anywhere anymore? I remember a similar feeling as a teenager, neither a child nor an adult, a sort of in-between, one day one thing the next day another. That’s the way I feel now; too old to be going out, drinking and clubbing with work colleagues in their 30’s & 40’s, way, way too old….. I’ve neither the inclination nor the stamina, but no where near old enough to be hanging about with the over 60’s (which I now am) who seem to moan about every thing and anything at every opportunity. The more people I get to know of my own age, the less I like them; on the whole they seem a pretty right wing reactionary lot, the ones I’ve met come across as far older than me in general, while only a year or so older in actual age. It’s all very confusing. Much as I love my afternoon ‘leisure art class’, its full of people in their 60’s and 70’s who seem so ‘old’ in attitude, I sometimes feel I have more in common with the young full time students than I do with my fellow classmates.
The countryside is full of yellow rapeseed at the moment, a terrible thing if you have hay fever, but a painters dream. I’ve been busy taking photographs and once I’ve organised myself for the coffee shop, (I’m meeting the manager with my work on the 9th) my first new project will be these beautiful yellow fields.
Being
Saturday, I’m not at work, and its one of the hottest days so far. I’ve
spent the morning in the garden, there was quite a lot to do, I even
had to get the hose pipe out for the first time last night and despite
the soaking I gave it then, every thing is bone dry this morning. 
The
garden is a great place to be right now, the birds are singing and
splashing in the pond, the last of the bluebells are still waving around
in the periwinkle and the pink London’s Pride is in full bloom. 
I
still think I’ve lost a lot of the veg I planted due to the wind, frost
and torrential rain, but what is left is looking good. And now……………………..back to the business of painting, I’m working on finishing a portrait and a landscape this afternoon.
Have a great Saturday and enjoy the sunshine while you can.......
The two paintings from my college days... just for Nemo
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forgetmenot525 wrote on May 26
lol...
nice of you to say so but afraid not.............the body feels pretty
knackered these days, whoever said youth is wasted on the young knew
what they were talking about.
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greenwytch wrote on May 26
forgetmenot525 said
 I agree................something in the stars, I too seem to be going through a 'thinking and realising' phase :-) 
i'm
doing lots of that these days as well...and a ton of 'releasing', too.
i am feeling more at peace for doing so, i hope you are, as well. XO
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i know how that goes ~ the years have taken momentos from me also
i would love to see the two big paintings :) |
forgetmenot525 wrote on May 26
LOL...
thanks Frank, but I don't feel very organised at the moment, I feel as
if I'm trying to catch up with myself. But the good thing is its made me
think I'll be more prepared in the future. I intend to store my
drawings in date and have them mounted as I go. I'm also going to try to
finish one painting before starting another,,,,,,,,,,,guess its a
learning curve :-)
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forgetmenot525 wrote on May 26
Oh and not before time :-).....................hope its as good there for you as it is here.
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forgetmenot525 wrote on May 26
awwww
thanks Nemo................that's nice to know, and yes it is a shame
I've lost so much. I did keep a lot of stuff from my college days but
when I split from my husband I had no where to store all the big boards
and canvas, I left them in his attic and eventually he took them to the
tip. The other stuff has just been lost over the years..............I
have those three photographs and I also have two big paintings from
college and that's all.
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forgetmenot525 wrote on May 26
Hi
Brenda, that's nice of you to say so but now that I'm actually trying
to get things sorted.............I feel as if I've been totally
disorganised in the past, maybe its just excitement at whats happening.
And its nice to know I'm not the only one feeling at ods with people of
my own age.
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forgetmenot525 wrote on May 26
I agree................something in the stars, I too seem to be going through a 'thinking and realising' phase :-)
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Okay
I'm impressed, you have turned into a multi-tasker. LOL You have a
good sense of organization, I'm confident that you will get it all taken
care of and still find time to spare.
The venue for showing your art is such a good idea and can be so personally rewarding. The unfinished paintings could be titled 'work in progress.' |
brendainmad wrote on May 26
First
of all, I don't think you're as disorganized as you say and I'm sure
looking forward to seeing your exhibition. For quite some time I've bee
trying to get rid of some of the clutter (mostly physical clutter) in my
life. I agree with you about people more or less our own age. To me it
seems that they're always complaining about how ill they are. One of my
neighbours even told me she thought she was dying the other day! I try
not to complain all the time even when I'm in pain. Happy gardening this
weekend.
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greenwytch wrote on May 26
WOW!
it must be something in the stars and winds.....my life lately has
been filled with lots of deep thoughts and realizations of things i must
change about me. looks like the garden is coming along quite nicely.
how cool to see a pic of your younger self...many good wishes to you as
your journey continues. HUGS ♥
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